Current song playing in the background: Lena Park- Fall in Love
Current mood: Restless, tired, and uncomfortable.
I am not certain if I should start off this post by cursing the humid weather. It’s utterly unbearable. The feel of the warm but damp air is indescribable. How sadistic of the Malaysian climate. Sigh… Malaysian methods of corporal torture: they just reinvent themselves every now and then eh?
I thought of writing something tonight after being triggered by a question from Jovaynne this morning:
“Eh, your BlogSpot died already?”
The truth beneath my disappearance from cyberspace rests not wholly on the fact that I was busy being ordered to be behind the wheel so often, but more on the fact that I suddenly felt contented with digesting everyday events in my memory rather than giving them physical form in a blog post. It may be the same scenario as a tourist with a camera: he spends the whole holiday behind his lenses that he forgets to witness the scenes of his opportunity through his very own eyes. I’m not saying blogging will prevent you from appreciating the quality of events. Rather, I thought blogging too often will allow room for too much scrutiny into the smallest things in my life. It becomes a habit when I possess the mindset poised ready to write; also ready within me is the disgusting authority to judge. Lately, I thought of letting my big, ugly ego take the back seat for a change after all these years and allow myself some room to enjoy the innumerable privileges life has brought me. In other words, rilek la…….
After my intermediate exams, there was the familiar sense of loss. This would also sound twisted, but having had slumber parties with your books for the past few months will cast onto you an unexpected attack of not knowing what to do with the sudden surge of freedom you possessed within a matter of 3 hours (after the Contract Law paper). The emotion was like being given another 200 years to live, but not having planned such a lifetime you struggle to decide if what YOU really wanted was to waste yourself in jubilation, or embark on something that would benefit you (or not). I chose the path of hours of Counter Strike, driving around the streets of my hometown, and finally having the deep enjoyment of all my favourite music with the stereo turned up. I started indulging in some Lian Hearn novels: The tales of the Otori. Between these indulgences, I managed to squeeze in some time for Evidence and Law of Trusts. I am pretty sure I’d be going for Evidence in my 2nd year because the prospect of submitting to Commercial Law sends pre- migraine pangs, and the estranged point of considering Family Law at all is, as mentioned, ESTRANGED.
Well that’s just about my opening post of a new season of blogging. The warm air is starting to get to me. Will attempt a bout of Counter Strike before bed. Tomorrow is a new day… to visit school? Maybe. If I can get a certain someone to come along with me, that is. Until tomorrow morning,
Good night and Good luck.
